Rant of the month

I know this isn't a good time to blog.. Because.. My finals on the 13th of MARCH, which means one more day to go........ Oh Allah... Please help me..

But please I just can't help it. Not that I'm thinking too, but perhaps, am i thinking too much?

& maybe these are only one of those phase.. The phase where everything in between will make you feel not good about yourself and other things surround you.. Things that will bring you down when you are not strong enough to handle it. Things that will make you a loser if you are not strong enough to fight against it. Thus, i really really really do need that force to help me through it. The same old force that has helped me through other things before.

I know, I know.. Both of us are occupied and you on the other hand, are so meticulous on doing you job, your responsibilities to provide for a better future. I am proud, to have someone so determine. Really....

But, I do too have things that might be bothering me and need somewhat your attention.
I know, I know.. My tiny little problems might not be as big as your, as important as yours, but, that tiny little problems are what has been bothering me.. I might be upset, disappointed and even cried about that, and that's my tiny little issues that people might see it as nothing. But I do feel bothered.
That is why, I need you..
Sorry for needing you that much. Sorry for being sooooooo dependent. Sorry for feeling resentful. Sorry for being annoying. Sorry for being an ass.

On the other hand, I'm feeling this way, too because of the finals. You know, I know that its not a big deal. But this is my final term, and I really do wanna do my best and make my parents proud, make you proud and most importantly, make myself proud of me.
So, i think, the stress have been massive.

Its ok.. I am ok..
Deep down inside, I hope you know that I do love you.