Will thy feel annoyed? Am I asking too much?

It's raining outside tonight.

& it has been quite a while since I jotted something on this page. So HELLO.
Plainly and mostly because that me-busy, the internet line went cuckoo, and just simply don't feel like it. .

I'm feeling tad bit out of place. I mean.. Life's ok, well of course there are some unexpected/expected things happened.. And there goes me,feeling like a piece of crap throughout the whole week. And then, what I need the most is just some attention for me.. I want to feel loved,cared, and all the warm-cloud 9-feelings just for a moment..

I am not an anti-social kinda person, but most of my close/best friends are few thousands miles away from me, different time zone, different weather, thus, its really difficult for me to keep up with them at the right time.. Imagine this ; I'm all washed up and rolled in my PJ, getting cozy and comfy in my bed, all of a sudden, my BB rang, a friend from the-far-away place asking how am I doing, and just a few chats I've already yawned couple times.. & vice versa. So, do you see the point? It difficult to keep up.
So I need to wait for each of them to come back and then we can talk like there's no tomorrow.. :/

Back to my point, what I was saying is.. Sometimes I feel like no one cares, but the truth is, plenty of them care.. I know. My family, my loved one, my friends. I know sometimes it may be too much to ask for, but that's what and how I felt at that very moment.. I, sometimes, am irritated at myself, too, for being that way, childish!
Why?
Why am I asking all this?
I am just a human with feelings.
Am I asking too much?
Will they be irritated or annoyed?

Sorry if I annoyed you.
I love you still.
And sorry if I'm asking too much.

So let's call it a night.

Love,
-Z-
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