I wish i was a child again

Its been a while now.. Days passed..
I've been thinking..
Thinking alot..

Hmm.. & finally passed my law test.. :) (Thanks fi for the drive,sam and bill for the patience of waiting) hehe Excited to learn driving now..

(the pic you asked for,haha)

Oh,I got an offer today to further my studies.. But don't really like the course they offered.. but the interesting part is where my final two years is gonna be either England or Aussie or Malaysia..(If i accept it).. Gotta do whole lots more of thinking after this..

yup yup yup yup yup... So confusing..
Life isnt easy..
Life is messy..
Sigh..
I wish I was a child again.. That time,nothing seemed to be wrong.. It was perfect.. I missed those times.. Dancing,kidding around.. Its way more better than now.. Im no longer a child.. There are emotions that I have to bear. Things I am responsible to do. The truth is the world is no longer a world that's always 'rainbow' anymore.. But I believe,whatever we do,wherever we go,we should do/go with all our heart,and then we will see the beauty of everything..
Be sincere..
No lies..

I'll keep you in my heart always.

till then.

He's just not that into you.

Hmm,watched He's Just Not That Into You..
It was nice, lesson LEARNT.. haha
1. most guys take for granted for what they have.
2. most guys lie.
3. Girls, don't let the "honeys" and the "babys" fool you. Im damn serious about this. oh yes!
4. The first sec they hang up your call,they'll call another girl telling them how much they miss them. How realistic is this world.??? oh man.

Well, all above are regular cases, If he really didnt take you for granted,if he didnt lie,if he didnt call another girl soon after he called you, someday,it will show.. Then,that is a rarely exceptional case.

Haha. Thank God that it was not a horror movie,cause there were only three of us in the cinema..
I cant wait to watch 'Duplicity'. :)))) Excited.

Umhm, tomorrow im leaving to KL,well,just for a few days. Shopping. (not really excited actually)

Why people tell lies?

I will keep you in my heart.

Till then.

Can't sleep

I can't sleep.
Its 2:15 AM now.

I just couldn't sleep.

Hmm. Someone once told me a love story before.
So,here it goes...

There's a girl and a guy who's been in a loving romantic perfect relationship for 2 years and they decided to get married.. It was all spent perfectly during a couple years of their marriage,until the third year of it.

The wife started to get bored and tired,the reasons of loving him doomed to fade away. She missed the romantical feelings that her husband used to give her. She felt like a child who missed the love from her daddy and mommy. And her husband failed to give her the feelings she's longing to,thus it broke her hope for the perfect love to succeed.

So 1 day,she decided to face her husband with a divorce. and the reason for it was because he never give her the love she always dreamed for. Her husband did not say a word but asked what could he do to change her mind.

After a while,she said 'There's a bud of rose down near the cliff that I really like,but you and I both know that if you take that flower for me,you'll die. So,what would you do?'

He stood in silence looking in her eyes,and ' I'll tell you the answer by tomorrow my dear.' he replied.

And so the next morning,she found a letter on the table complete with a set of her favorite American breakfast served on the table, but there's no sign of her husband anywhere around. She was confused but yet she flipped open the letter anxiously.

It started like this "My beloved wife, first of all, I would like to say I love you, but the answer is no. I will not take the flower for you but please let me explain..."

Her heart started breaking,but she continued.

"You could spend all day clicking the computer and messing with all the programs and ended up crying in front of the monitor ,but I shall lend you my fingers by helping you to fix the programs that you messed up.."

" You always forgot to bring our house key when you're out, but I shall give you my leg to kick the door open so that you won't worry about keys anymore.."

" There are times in the middle of every month,you'll be feeling uncomfortable here and there, I will give you my hand by massaging you and care for you.."

" You always love to stay at home but you told me you're bored,so every time I'll rush home and lend you my mouth by sharing all the stories with you and make you smile again"

Her tears started to rush down her cheeks. And she continued.

"You always spent time facing the computer and reading books in the dark,and that's bad for your eyesight my love..But its alright,coz I will take care of my own,so that when we're old, I will help you to clip your fingernails and read for you.."

"My both hand will always be yours, I will guide you along the journey. I will bring you to see the sun rise and the sun set at the magnificant beaches around the world.."

"But Love, I will never take that flower for you,coz I will never wanna see you cry for me, my death.."

"Therefore, if everything that I've given you isnt enough for you, I will not stop you from finding others to give you your happiness. So,thats my answer,and if you're satisfied,please let me in,coz im outside waiting for you,but if you don't,please pass me the letter and I will leave. And I will wish the best for you.. Believe me,your happiness is mine."

She dropped the dripping wet letter and rushed to the door and hugged her husband like as if that it was the time.

So,for me,that is Love,when we feel the love is fading away from our heart coz we feel that he/she could'nt give us the love in the way we desire,and that is the time the love exist in a way that we never imagine before,if we wait and try..
If what I gave is not enough for you, I will leave and wish you the very best,and all I could do is keep you in the very bottom of my heart and miss you always.. The promises will only be meaningless,pointless words untill they are fullfilled,and if they don't,they will remain words.


So,its 4.04 am,and i think i should be sleeping now..

I'll keep you in my heart.

Till then.

Hot !

Adam Lambert plays the funky music...!!!



Oh yeah.. <3

Kris Allen sang Ain't no sunshine..
Hot Hot Hot!

Ugly truth

April fool.

Today is different.. I feel different. I do not know why.
I don't understand you,maybe never will I. I feel like I don;t even know you. I don't know who I wanna trust.
Now I don't trust anyone. Only in God I trust. and my family.

Human talk anything easily without thinking the consequences. No,they,hardly will..
Human make promises.
Human make vows.
Human do things that is out of their mind.

But,just in a second,things can change and nothing will ever be the same. For no freaking reason.
They don't care if it hurts other people,they don't care if the people is the one that they once really loved and cared,and the ugly truth is,they're the one who's been always be there for them.
And yet,it broke down just like that.
They turn around and leave them behind without turning back even they heard a cry.
No,they don't.
But if they do,it might be too late. Too late.
The wound is too deep. Even if it heals,it will always be a scar that become a nightmare for another person..
And even if they do,are they sincere?
Will they repeat the same old thing again and again? Will it be like in a mouse trap? Just round and round and never come out?

For whom that been hurt before,how do you find forgiveness?
Teach me..
Cause I still can't find the forgiveness..
Wise people once said, 'Forgive and Forget', Its is actually easier said than done. It is definitely not easy.
I really do wanna forgive,but I couldn't. Still no. Maybe it takes time.
I wanna forget,that is never gonna happen.

Its is not easy both way,because how can you love someone so much,but you still can't forgive them?

I will keep you in my heart.

Till then.